Masturbation question?

im 14 and i have been really int lately. im baptist and dont believe in giving it up to anyone before i get married. to relieve my frusturation, i've fingered myself with as many as 3 finger at a time, i've also used those fat pens as well as lotion bottles that fit(they were closed) i;ve even gone as far as nail polish bottles. (i havent started my period and i wear a 34b) but i shoved a tampon up there thinking it would relieve my feelings...it didnt. the only time it relieves is when i have an (and i love the feeling)i feel this way everyday and i was wondering what i could use (vibrators are out of the question because i have no privacy to hide it and no money to buy it) i feel guilty after watching because i know God doesn't like that but i really love that feeling any suggestions